Thursday, November 20, 2008
Time: 2.52pm
location: school lab
Feeling: depressed, relieve, tiredhi ppl.Im so relieve dat my fyp is over n my presentation is over too..i juz had my presentation..everything went smoothly..thank god..i will be starting my attachment on monday..guess hw much dey are paying me??well...$600 per mth..baek kape..hehe..apart frm my happinese dat i have ended my FYP..im upset n depressed wit wat happen to me yesterday..for almost 1 yr 5mth we been together..finally he said to me dat he cant stand my attitude..after several tym of asking him..begging him to tell me the truth..i have to thx to someone out there for telling me dat "even ur own bf cant stand my attitude"..thnx very much..at first i dun believe it at all..i juz wan to make sure it not true..well..everything is out nw..im so upset for wat he did..y that someone noe about it bt not me..i have tell u alot of tym dun let caught u red handed..eventhou u were trying to change me..bt y u nv say it straight to my face..y must u tell someone about it..u say u dislike my attitude bt u truely love me..wats the point of loving me bt u cant accept for wat i am..if u truely love me..u shudnt have say dat to me..u shud say dat no matter ur attitude is bad or good i will accept for who u are coz i truely love u..bt u didnt...it broke my heart so deep dat i have no choice bt to leave you..u still have the courage to say dat if im with some else..no matter wat u still wait for me..is lyk u letting me move on..i was about to let u have last chance to say wat i wan to hear..bt u didint..u hurt my hurt twice within a minute..n nw u begging me for mercy..wats the used..if i were to accept u back..i dun think thing will gonna be alrite..u say y im so heartless..im not heartless..u are one who is heartless..all this time u lied to me n u lie to urself..ya i noe i have a bad attitude towards u..bt dis is hu i am..u have to accept it..i try to by not giving u bad attitude..bt sometime u are the one making me do dat..juz give me tym to cool dwn n think over..i will try to accept u back if im fully cool dwn..lastly i juz wanna say im sori if all this while i been rude or watever i did wrong to you..im sorrie..
Dis is me signing off
@2:52 PM
